Can I still hope?

Ten years. Ten long years. Ten years of hope, disappointment, more hope and disappointment again. Had I imagined it? Was the vision even real anymore? Was it simply too hard – too hard to keep on believing?

Sometimes the cry inside us is so strong, we reach a point of desperation. And we know the only answer is God. Yet how often do we fear that hope may vanish like a whisper – particularly when we’ve been hurt or let down in the past? And before we know, we convince ourselves ‘it’s not so bad’, ‘we have it’, ‘it’s too hard’, ‘there’s no point’, ‘this is just not meant to be.’

Through the years of life’s up’s and down’s we get so used to protecting ourselves that it can take all we have to trust Him enough to allow the vulnerability and openness of hope. This is our door within.

But in His grace, He reminds us that we are not really the ones doing the running. It’s because He has run to us, that we find we can no longer resist Him. And all He wants in return is our yes. Once He has it, we will never lose Him. Or the hope only He can bring.

How much do we miss because of our self-imposed defenses? What might be blocking your door within? What is He inviting you to open once again, so that you may hear Him today?

‘Behold, I’m standing at the door, knocking. If your heart is open to hear my voice and you open the door within, I will come in to you and feast with you. And you will feast with me?’

Revelation 3:20 TPT